pictures big and little 
21 July 2010
| Etiketler: Bat Cave, Benign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo, Book Launch, Brain Tumour, Can Opener, Cancer Cells, Cancer Centre, Fight Illness, Geriatric Vestibular Disease, Life Sort, Little Bug, Little Bugs, Losing Sight, Month Of April, Neupogen, Norwalk Virus, Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo, Pink Eye, Royal Ontario Museum, Travelling Home
I woke up yesterday morning with a sore throat and a headache.
Here we go again. Having a compromised immune system is no picnic. In the last year, I missed my Toronto book launch because of the flu, got H1N1 on the day the vaccine became available, was hit by Norwalk virus when my spouse was away (and found myself crawling along my kitchen floor with a can opener to “make dinner”, got pink eye and more little flus and colds than I want to count.
Chemotherapy destroys cancer cells. It also destroys the cells that fight illness. Despite the fact that I try to limit my exposure to germs, wash my hands regularly, get enough sleep and eat well (not to mention the ten doses of Neupogen with which I inject myself after every treatment), I seem to fall prey to almost every little bug that passes my way (and when you have kids, lots of little bugs pass your way).
I am, literally, sick of it (I’ve also had benign paroxysmal positional vertigo. That had nothing to do with my immune system and was mostly just an annoyance. And when I realized that I did not have a brain tumour, I was actually kind of amused in a “of course this would happen to me at this point in my life” sort of way. Also, my golden, Emma, had a couple of bouts with geriatric vestibular disease, which I think is basically the same thing).
I need a break from chemo and I’m taking the month of April off. On the day when I would normally be at the cancer centre, I will be travelling home on the train from Toronto with D. (we will have been visiting grandparents, hanging out at the Bat Cave at the Royal Ontario Museum and the Harry Potter Exhibit at the Science Centre).
I’m not losing sight of the bigger picture, though. I have a CT scan today (abdominal and thoracic) and I am worrying about it.
Because I always do.
I’m fretting about my veins and how many times (and where) they’ll have to poke me before they can inject the contrast but I’m also anxious about what the pictures will show.
Hopefully, everything will look normal and healthy, except for the scars that cover my liver. Hopefully, I can add this to my least of clean scans. And, hopefully, I can keep going through this routine, with the same results for years to come.
I haven’t started to take the clean scans for granted. I doubt that I ever will.
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