something blue 
this experience has turned me into an emotional rollercoaster. pre-leukemia, i was a tough, cynical 20-something who never got too rattled up about something that wasn’t a really big deal.
last night, i sat down to watch extreme makeovers: wedding edition at 9:00 hst. at 9:03, i went and curled up in a fetal position on my bed and bawled until hubby woke up and held me.
maybe it’s because the couple’s story hit so close to home. the groom-to-be was 33, and a four-time survivor of non-hodgkins lymphoma. he was 17 when he was diagnosed the first time, as was my hubby. the tv groom-to-be was on the waiting list for a heart transplant because all of the chemo had wrecked his heart.
i listened to their story and thought…is this what we have to look forward to?
or maybe i am just the world’s biggest sap.
